Tugging on my heartstrings. . .

Honestly, there is only one thing on my mind right now.
(courtney, make up your freaking mind!!!!!!!!)
I have been waiting to go back to school for a few reasons.
1. I just got married
2. I just bought a home
3. I like my freedom
4. I don't know exactly what I want to do

Okay, yeah, number four is a pile of crap that I have been feeding everyone including myself.
I want to be a nurse.
I love the medical field and it comes so naturally.
I am a care taker.
That's what I love.
I think the real reasons I didn't go straight into nursing school are:
1. It is expansive
2. I need to keep working full-time
3. It is just under $30,000
4. Did I mention it is expansive?

There, I said it and it feels good to get off my chest.
People keep telling me to make up my mind.
In all reality, I am looking for a different program in the medical field that is not as expansive.

I have become a pro at pushing this thought aside and enjoying my job.
I mean, I am in nursing.
I am just at the bottom of the pole.
I could honestly do this for ten more years.

The reason this is heavy on my heart is because at work
today, a lady came up to me
in a while lab jacket and handed me her
business card.
"We need nurses with your type of passion"
As I looked at the card it read,

Chief Preceptor
Pioneer Pacific College

My Administrator even rambled on about me.

Wow. I have never felt so appreciated career wise.

I briefly told the kind lady that I had already been accepted into the program in
but then I moved up North.

She assured me that it would all be transfered and I would have nothing
to worry about.

I have a lot to worry about:

1. I will have way less time to spend with my husband
2. I will increase our debt my another $30,0000
3. I will be sleep deprived for a year

My husband is amazing.
He is so supportive and wants me to do what my heart desires.
I just feel like he is getting the short end of the stick.

I need to pray for guidance and reassurance.

Thank you for listening to me ramble.


  1. court, you go after your dreams :) its so great you have a man at home cheering you on!

  2. BUT i would wait until the house is closed. something like this could really screw up your financing :))

  3. I would wait until the Spring. House closes November. Thank you for that tip though lovely :))