Upside down. . .

My little mind is sure going at a fast pace these days.

First of all I would like to take a moment to inform my readers that I will be married in 19 days. I am more than thrilled, lets just say that ♥

I am so lucky to have someone who pretty much has it all together 99.8% of the time.

Recently I have began to deeply understand just how lucky I am and will be as his wife.

I don't really know how to explain the transition I feel like I am going though.

It's weird to say, but I feel like our love is becoming more mature.

More like my understanding of love and being in love is becoming more mature.

It is a wonderful feeling.

I have these moments when we are hanging out together, eating a meal or playing around, where I just stop everything and want to absorb as much of the wonderful-ness that is taking place right then and there.

It's kind of like when we first met and had butterflies, only this time, the flutters slow down and my heart feels safe and loved.

The last week I have not wanted to do any wedding preparations, try to mark of things from my list or really do anything. Not out of laziness, but simply because I just want to BE with him. I want to sit, hold hands & enjoy this feeling that I know will be

constantly present in our future. Told you I'm lucky.

On another note, I have thought it through extensively and discussed it with the mister and I will not be going to school next year.

I am not sure what path I want to go down and I think it will be better for me to work and figure that out. I know I want to work in the medical field, but I feel like I am pushing myself toward any option possible. A safe option you could say.

I don't really want to go into medical massage deep down. I just wanted to stay in school and this was an easy program to get into.

My mind and thoughts drive me crazy at times.

All for now.

♥